Look at me now,
Do you even see me?
I am right here!
What about now?
I’m standing here in this black dress.
Standing alone, apart from society,
His light shines upon me.
It kills the corruption inside my broken heart.
It overcomes the darkness surrounding me,
For in Him, my heart starts beating.
Here I am again!
Draped in His purity,
Anxiety doesn’t stand a chance.
In white, His light shines even brighter.
My heart is a vessel for His Glory.
In my heart, my identity exists.
It exists, because in my heart, He lives.
Look at this world, do you not see His beauty?
His character is abundant in nature.
It is simple and pure.
This world is shaped as a reflection of His heart,
To whom mine belongs.
Just like the blanket I received at birth,
He has never left.
My heart is where love remains,
It is where Christ reigns.
It is where love pours out.
Its shape reflects my character and identity.
It is the breath inside of me.
My identity is real,
It is vibrant,
It is alive,
All because it is found in Christ.
Mental illness acts as the mask cracking this face,
Leaving it lifeless and dull,
Blocking the heart inside.
Depression no longer defines me;
It is no longer my identity.
Your strength is not enough to win this fight.
His love will drown out your efforts.
So simple, yet unique,
His light will outshine you,
It will destroy.
My heart is a weapon for His love.
Through which His grace will defeat you.
I am a child of God,
A warrior though you see.
This is my true identity.
I will never give up this battle.
Depression you will no longer strain my heart.
I will fight as myself,
For all the world to see.
Not for myself, but for Him,
And hearts of those I love.
Hello, my name is Julia,
And I wish to be known by the character of my heart.