My name is Isha. This is my story.
I have always been that child who looks around for inspiration, who admires people for their strengths. I have hated how weak human can be sometimes. I hate the fact that Love makes human weak, why? I have seen my parents work really hard so that their children can have it all. I have seen them worrying about our future. Then I come across this: “I’ll do anything for them”. Oh dear!
I was a rebel, in fact, I am a rebel. If you want me to do a thing just because you want me to do it, believe me I won’t. I have been brought up this way. Unlike other children who had to ask permission from their parents, I was allowed to do it my way. Of course this sometimes used to trouble my parents when I didn’t want to do it their way.
Once in school, I was in the 12th Grade (Which is final year of high school in USA). My teacher asked us “Why do you want to get good grades?” Is it because someone you know did well so you want to prove that you’re better, or because your parents want you too? Is there anyone here who wants to do it for themselves because you like it? Do it because you want to. If you don’t want to be a musician what good it will do to you. You are just wasting your time, mind and energy on something you don’t like.
This was a self-aware moment in my life. Each and every time I feel like I am not keeping pace with my contemporaries; my friends are doing better than I am! I remember that day.
The lowest I felt was when I was still in school and this person used to tease me for being into books. I was called a bookworm and what not. I used to spend a lot of time playing in the ground, beating myself up in the sun. I knew deep down that there is nothing wrong with being a bookworm, but it used to trouble me. I went to my Mom and told her. She understood and said to me, “He is just jealous because you always get good grades. Don’t worry time teaches everyone a lesson. Time will shut everything. You just keep doing you.” Thank you Mom!
I graduated in May 2015 from college. I started working full time in July 2015 in an IT company. I had to move to this big city from my small place in the country side, the kind of place where everybody knows everybody to where you are nobody. I love my job because I have a lot of time in between to do things I love.
Thinking is one of them. While I was working I thought, “is this it?” Will I be doing this thing my whole life? I thought about it a lot and finally came out with an action plan. Yes, I’ll be doing this for some time, and then I will do something else.
I am an avid reader. You give me anything and I will read it. Isn’t it amazing how different people have different opinions on different things? For some it’s clear, it’s there in the open and for some it’s a gradual progress. That’s the beauty of having perspective.
Oh! I just remembered something, the other day I was thinking about the quote which says “Life is like a book. There are good chapters, and there are bad chapters. But when you get to a bad chapter, you don’t stop reading the book! If you do then you never get to find out what happens next!”
A book is defined. Its author decides how it should begin and where it should end. What is written in a book may not be valid 20 years from now.
Do you really think life is like a book? I am leaving you with this thought, tell me your perspective.