On the outside, she is brightness, radiance, beauty, and kindness.
On the inside, her light has gone out.
The darkness that lies there is emptiness, loneliness, hopelessness.
There is nowhere she can hide from the darkness that lives inside.
She puts on a smile to try to hide the darkness from others, but there’s no hiding it from herself.
She does not want to be a burden, so she conceals.
She lies to her friends when they ask how she is.
She tells herself that it’s just easier that way.
There’s no reason to bother anyone with her problems.
There’s no reason for anyone to have to look at her differently or treat her as a fragile being.
She doesn’t want to be known as too weak or too broken or emotional.
So she doesn’t let anyone have those thoughts about her.
It’s just easier that way.
She is kind to everyone.
She strives to help others in any way she can.
Because she knows what it’s like to feel empty and hopeless and she doesn’t want anyone else to feel that way.
She has a big heart and enjoys showering others with love and compassion.
She could probably use some love and compassion herself, but that would be a sign of weakness and vulnerability.
So she denies herself the love she needs and instead sends all of her love to the world.
It’s just easier that way.
But the truth is, it’s not easier that way.
She struggles alone because she believes it’s easier for others, when in fact it is the hardest thing to do it alone.
Reaching out for help feels like a cry for attention.
So she doesn’t reach out.
She struggles alone and stays out of the spotlight.
It feels easier this way, but it’s not.