As the engines started to roar and the giant metal bird started to take flight my head spun in a million directions. My time had finally come to leave home and move abroad to embark a new challenge against all odds.
I started to grin, I had proved everyone wrong. I went against the current and decided against what everyone told me and stuck to my own beliefs. I knew that my path to D1 was harder by going my own way, but that is what felt right for me not what others said. I knew I would get to American University and my playing time would be almost non-existent my first year because of my decision but that’s what I wanted to do.
All those negative remarks from back home are what push me everyday to go to class and training, followed by study hall and gym time in the afternoon. I want to be the best I can, to be able to prove everyone wrong and show them I wasn’t a showoff as some labeled me.
Once I got to DC it hasn’t been any different than what I envisioned, the team has flown to Florida for the first game if the season and I wasn’t named on the roster. Although I half expected not to travel it was still a hard pill to swallow. It left me a bitter taste of agony inside, but they say it isn’t about how many times you fall but how many times you stand up and keep moving forward. The difference between being considered a player and the legend is all the work that is done behind the scenes that no one can see. That is what is going to get me on that field and prove that I deserve to be there. I might not play this season at all or maybe I will, I don’t know. But one thing I do know is that it won’t be because of lack of effort. Someone can be better than me or more talented but no one can try harder than me.
All this people have pulled me back due to me wanting to go a different path than the others. I enjoyed being with my friends too much and wasn’t prepared to sacrifice all my youth to go and play soccer. I enjoyed going to the beach for the whole summer and having a good time, rather than working my ass off. Now that I’m here I realize how dumb I was and I don’t recommend it to anyone. If you want to play sports in college you can’t give any advantages to anyone. Because I did all my life I am now playing catch up to a team of veterans and well prepared freshman.
That is why now I have to work harder than anyone and make more sacrifices. I have to spend less time with my friends than my teammates to make up for the loss time of earlier years. There are days were I feel like throwing the towel and just enjoy being a normal college kid, but then I remember all the haters I have to prove wrong. I remember all the people that doubted me because of my laid-back attitude and I know I have to keep going. Maybe I did deserve all the negative remarks and doubters but now that I’m here it’s my chance to prove that I deserve being here and that I will fix all of my mistakes.
I have battled against forces pushing me back and negative influences all my life and got to where I am today. So I won’t let one more negative feeling push me down. Instead this will be the drop that turns the glass and makes me become the player I know I can be. This will be what pushes me to be great.